Getting off all medication!

Tonight I took 2 2o mg tablets of Geodon. I have been only on 60 mg of Geodon for the past week. I will take 40 mg of Geodon until Jan 10, then I'll switch to 20 mg until Jan 20 and then I'll go completely off it. I think this is possible because I don't drink any caffeine (no coffee for 28 days and no soda for at least 20 days!). I sometimes occasionally drink Snapple Iced Tea but tea caffeine is better, more antioxidants.

I will cancel my Dr Sherman appt and be doctor-free and medicine-free for the first time since November 2007!

I stopped taking the Zoloft medication in late 2009 and I only needed the Geodon to go to sleep. But now that I have no job, tax season is not until mid-February and I can sleep longer hours because I have no caffeine in my system I don't need Geodon to go to sleep! I hope this 40 mgs is enough! Patrick moved to Chicago, no Brandon or even innocuous clueless Davey is out of the picture. So no guys to get paranoid over. Perfect time to end this medication addiction.

Wish me luck!

Wednesday Update on Brandon

So Brandon does have all-access. He's at the Equinox in Boston. He went to Boston last night. I think he went to Boston for a haircut. Not confirmed yet, but it's seeming like it. He didn't check into any media company today. But maybe he'll stay there for the weekend and leave me the hell alone. he really annoyed me this past weekend insisting on meeting him when I was busy.

I did get my bloodwork done so I can get tested for hepatitis and HIV. Hoping Davey didn't give me any std. I did get checked for gonorrhea and chlamydia in February so he didn't give me those diseases.

I was so tired yesterday morning that I texted my boss to say I was sick and slept til 1PM. I was so tired. then I went to the doctor and got some coffee. yumm. now that the weather is getting cold and crisp I've been craving hot coffee.

went back to work today. kinda busy. Paddy is staring at me now. Not sure why.

as each day goes by and I learn more about Brandon, he gets more and more nutso. But he was funny in his tweet last night. He was saying if you put the kit kats on bagels then you're a full-blown fatty. that was hilarious. who puts kit kats on bagels? so funny. that def made me smile for the morning.

Wonder if Brandon lost his beard. I swear I can get him to date me. Something in me just says he will try. but then again I may be wrong. he is a bit nutso!

Wonder when he'll be back.

Paddy is staring at me again. Not sure what he wants.

Phillies losing to the Cardinals. They better make it to the World Series. they have Cole Hamels, Cliff Lee and Roy Halliday. they need to win a World Series ring.

Hoping the Phillies beat the Yankees in six games in the World Series.

Giants-Sea Hawks game at 1PM on Sunday. Going to watch that game for sure! Jets-Patriots game at 4:15pm on Sunday, the Jets are going to be 2-3 and not make the playoffs this year. Now rooting for the Giants now!

Paddy finally stopped staring at me.

Monday night doldrums

OK I am just posting what is happening. Brandon went to Boston for work Wednesday night and tweet-asked his friends in Boston if he should stay the weekend there. then his friend said some nyc guys were in town. So I thought he'd stay the weekend and leave me the hell alone. No he comes back on Friday and IM's me Friday night. Then he contacts me on Saturday night asking for a threesome. And the most annoying come over fuck me IMs on Sunday. Couldn't meet him this weekend. And tonight when I could, he is nowhere to be found.

But I found out why he is MIA on Mondays. He has some flywheel class on Monday nights. some type of studio cycling class.

Anyways, I'm going to get tested tomorrow since Brandon is paranoid that I am carrying some unknown std. I was clean before Davey and unless Davey has some unknown std, I am sure I am fine. Wondering why I need to do this since we'll be using condoms. Strange guy. But he's hot and I got over his tweet stuff.

So he likes to share. Let's give him his twitter foursquare forecast tweets.

I am rooting for Tampa! GO TAMPA! Also might be rooting for the Yankees til the World Series.

But I really think Brandon came back from Boston because his company didn't comp his room for the weekend. I can't think it was because of me. I really hope not. that would be very sad.

At least I'll be having sex with Brandon. the jerking off stuff got tiring and old after the second time. At least I know he wants to have sex with me. I was beginning to get worried abt my looks and genuine sex appeal.

The weather got cold so I wore jeans to work. I think I'll wear jeans to work every day this fall and winter.

I do like Brandon but I have a feeling he's obsessed with me. that's just a feeling I have. not confirmed. who knows with him?

He's a Steelers fan. So was Davey. But Davey grew up in Pittsburgh. Why is Brandon a Steelers fan? Strange guy. Doesn't like the Mets or Jets. He's into the Yankees. and he tweeted abt the Giants.

Yesterday and tomorrow

Brandon IM'ed me at 1:41pm. I wasn't around. He returned at around 4:25pm and we chatted. He already wants to meet up again. I think I created a monster. So I'll be meeting him tomorrow at 11AM. We shall see where this goes. I thought he would wait a week or so.

Did I mention that Brandon is hot! He is smokin' hot! God must have pitied me on my last three guys that I slept with. Adam, Brian and Davey were all ugly. Adam was alright but short. but the rest were like 5-6. Brandon's a 9! I think I'm an 8. So he's hotter than me.

He still doesn't want sex, even tho he mentioned anal sex and the fact that he's never had it. He prolly had sex with 2 girls. I don't know why he can't get more girls, he's really cute. Maybe girls are twitter friends of him and are turned off by the fact he posts where he is every waking moment. I'm not mentioning it to him. But that's a turnoff.

But I am happier with Brandon being a fuck buddy than Davey in the year and 3 months I was dating him. God and the fact that Davey is keeping my digital camera is just wrong. I hope he gets what he deserves.

Brandon is so much hotter and has a bigger penis than Davey. Brandon's definitely an upgrade over Davey. The only three things against him is the fact he's Jewish, he's 8-9 years younger than me, and he updates his whereabouts on twitter every couple hours.

The last thing he might be doing for work even though he updates it on weekends too and at night. So it makes me think he just likes to share?

OK, until the next Brandon update :)

I met up with Brandon tonight after work. Got there around 5:20pm. Jerked him off and went on my way. He's very cute! Had my period today so it worked out perfectly.

If I can bet anything is I'll hear from him in a week or so. I think he'll make an excellent fuck buddy. And I think I can get it into more.

He called me at 10:30pm on Tuesday night. I was on my way home from the Yankee game. but I didn't think he would call me.

He's like 6 feet tall, muscular build, scruffy goatee like beard going on. Very cute. I would say he's as cute as John Fitzgerald. And John was hot! He's just Jewish.

I'm in love!

On another note, my blog has been compromised. Davey must have found it, I don't know how but he did. I don't think I bad-mouthed him on this. I just didn't see him that much during our duration (don't even think I wanna call it a relationship).

Anyways, I've moved on to Brandon.

He has a lot of Dave Matthews Band concert posters. I didn't wanna mention the fact that he just saw them last weekend. His apartment is very neat. Puts my apt to shame. I need to get my housekeeper to come by next weekend. He has a nice one-bedroom, enough room for me and Paddy to move into. LOLOL

I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM. HAPPY :)

Hmm another 8 days. So Hurricane Irene became Tropical Storm Irene and the MTA was shut down for no apparent reason. Will try to get into work tmrw by Q101.

Brandon this guy I met three years ago online has resurfaced. He always chickened out before meeting me. Not sure if he'll chicken out again. He's very hot though. The Giants-Jets game is tmrw which I forgot abt so I will prolly watch that instead of meeting him. But maybe on Tuesday or Wednesday. He's 26 years old. Very young. I met him when he was 23. 8 year age difference. I have a feeling I can prolly manipulate him into dating me. LOL he's just very impressionable.

Davey finally got the hint and left me alone. Hallelujah!

Tmrw I have a dentist appt at 6PM so I can't meet him anyways. Maybe afterwards! LOL

Helping Chiemi tmrw if I dont get into work on time.

Friday I am meeting Josh for a steak dinner at Osso Bocu. Labor Day Monday at the US Open day session.

I have time on Tues/Wed/Thurs for the Brandon meeting. I do like his name though!

long time since last post, trying to post more!

It's been 11 days since my last post. I sometimes remind myself I need to post an update but then I never get around to it.

So I have not reconciled with Davey.. He sent me a pic of a coffee cup and red velvet cupcake, weird! I might take Kate's advice and send a pic of a plate of buffalo wings and a bottle of gin saying bottoms up! I will do that this weekend at the bar from watching the Giants-Panthers game tomorrow.

OK my dog is cuddled up beside me, how cute. He missed me all day.

I just got back from an all-Beethoven program at a Mostly Mozart Festival, lol.

Tmrw I have a brunch meetup at Cookshop then a 4:10PM Yankees-Rays game. maybe catching the Giants-Panthers game at Brother Jimmy's. Sunday I have a pug meetup in the morning then a 3PM Knitting workshop at Lion Brand Studio.

Monday I'm watching the Jets-Houston Texan game at a bar in Manhattan, TBD.

Then a dentist appt on Thursday. My new old housekeeper from Washington Heights is cleaning my apt at 5:30PM on Friday. Then Deadbeat Darling concert at 11PM. Photo shoot with Paddy in Central Park but there's a threat of thunderstorms that day so I might reschedule to next Sat August 27.

I got a root canal done and I now need five more visits to the dentist to get the post and crown done.

Mets losing. Wright sucks. Bay on fire.

Mittens knitting Part 2 on Sunday August 21. I need to get a rain date Mets voucher by the end of this year. It leaves me August 20 to maybe do a Mets game. What kind of seats should I buy? Should I just get a single ticket? So many questions, so little answers.

Took my medicine at 11PM, won't be sleepy til 1AM.

end of Davey, yay!

Just called it quits with Davey. In June or so he asks me to define the relationship as we're not bf-gf. news to me! Anyways that relationship was not going anywhere. I only saw him once every 3-5 months, that's just not acceptable. I am going to give up dating guys and just focus on my career and earning enough money to raise a kid on my own. Just one kid preferably a boy. Sperm donor: white male with dark hair who's intelligent and not ugly (no big nose, no glasses, brown eyes, don't want a freak half-Asian kid with blue or green eyes).

By December, I shd be making 60K. And then wait another year to December 2012 to get to 70K, and then in December 2013 get to 80K. that's not bad. I can afford a baby with 80K. I'll be 37 in May of 2014 and making 80K. That's enough for diapers and I'll be sending my kid to public school. LOL maybe Stuyvesant! and save up in a college fund for Cornell's state school, that's not a bad plan!

I'll name my son Jason after Jason Bay! LOL

If it's a girl I'll name her Isabella and nickname her Ella.

That's my current plan and I no longer plan on dating guys or having sex. I don't miss it and I have no sex drive ever since being put on Geodon.

Away with the BAD!

So today was a difficult day. I cut out one of my good friends. She just wasn't supportive of my life decisions and she made me say negative things to her out of spite so it was just not healthy.

Anyways, moving on!

Davey's coming to NYC soon. That should be fun. I think I'll take him to the Thai place since that is going to expire soon. I hope he makes it for my birthday.

Everything's going well though, I'm getting a $250 check in the mail. And I have $150 in upcoming project.

I signed up for elance and bid on 4-5 more projects so I hope I get those.

Nothing else is new with me.

I'm meeting my friend Josh for dinner tonight at Bann. It's on me because he got dinner last time.

Tax Season Going on Strong!

The Knicks beat the Orlando Magic in overtime. Thrilling game!

Well Davey says he's coming to NYC to visit. We shall see. He's turned MIA lately.

I have one bookkeeping client tomorrow at 11AM, getting paid by one tax client tomorrow at around 5PM and then getting some receipts from a third client to type up into a spreadsheet for him. Wednesday I have an 8:30AM appt and an 11AM appt. Both tax clients. Thursday I have a 12PM tax client. No appts so far on Friday. One bookkeeping client at 10AM on Sat. A double client (boyfriend, girlfriend) at 4PM on Sunday. And it hasn't reached the midway of the week and I'm booked this week solidly.

I have 4722 in the bank account, but I have a 130 ticket, 1100 rent, 250 rent check outstanding. I wanna have 5-6K after tax season.

Have to get up at 9AM tomorrow. I should make my office hours 12PM to 7PM.

Paddy's being finicky lately. I feed him so much food he should be happy he has a mummy like me.

Update in March, BUSY tax season

Has it been almost two months since I posted an update? Bad me!

So tax season is getting busy. Have at least 5-7 returns left to prepare. Meeting 2 clients per day from tmrw (Thursday) to Saturday then one client on Sunday and one client on Tuesday.

But I am still going out. I am going to dinner and an opera featuring Natalie Dessay! Yup Lucia di Lammermoor. I thought it would be different actors but Dessay will be there! That's my favorite opera of all time, when she goes mad. That's the truth.. Then my grade school friends will be at the R Bar, not sure if I'll go down there after the opera ends at 11:40pm. We shall see!

I emailed Davey abt a 4-day trip to MD on March 17 to March 20. But maybe I'll get clients then and not be able to take the time off. We shall see!

Now been following the Knicks since last Wednesday when they got Carmelo Anthony and Billups. They won tonight, going 3-2 since the trade. I will try to get Knicks tickets in the coming weeks.

On the bus

So I'm on the Greyhound bus, using their Wifi. They don't have outlets though. If I went to DC, they would have outlets and Wifi.

I'm on the way to visit Davey in MD. I kinda bugged out on him again because I didn't hear back from him after he invited me down at 5PM. He responded back at 7:45PM. But all is well now.

I'm not going to ask when he'll move to NYC or why he doesn't come and visit me. I will just ask if he is free Good Friday weekend. That's reasonable, right?

It's sleeting snow and rain in NJ. I think it's still snowing in MD. I wonder what he'll be making for dinner tonight.

Last weekend in MD

So I was invited by Davey up this weekend, took the bus to Baltimore then transferred to Frederick so I got there around 3pm. He picked me up at 3:10pm and we hung out til 6pm whereupon he had to leave to go to a work dinner. He was gone til midnight! I was pissed so he slept on the sofa for part of the night. But we did end up having sex the morning after so we didn't break up over it.

He said he'll come to NYC in January. So we shall see! I have Carmen the opera on January 8, he prolly won't come on New Year's Eve. So he'll most likely come on January 15 which is 8 weeks (2 months) away. December is not a good month with Christmas and all. Anyways I wanna go up there Valentine's Day weekend on a Friday night and he said he'll show me around on Saturday and I can go home on Sunday. That will be in February.

Davey wants some more nude photos but my camera went missing. this is the fourth or fifth camera I've bought. Luckily the price went down to 99 so the total is 118, plus the carrying case that I lost (20) and an SD card (16), it'll be like the cost of it before at $150.

I was thinking about breaking up with Davey and going out with Howard. But he's 5'8 and has two teenage kids. Also he runs and wants to run with me and I haven't run in 4-5 months! I am not about to go running again for a guy. Davey doesn't make me run and he's 5'10 so my kids might be taller, LOL. So I think I will continue dating Davey and hope he moves to NYC sometime next year.

next weekend!

So Davey might be coming up to NYC for work this week so next weekend looks good to finally meet up. It's been over 3 months since I last saw him. He's also gonna think up some new poses for me to send.

I got drunk last night at Cheryl's birthday party. I had 5.5 martinis. Anyways, not gonna drink again anytime soon. The drinks were half-off so I only spent $36 on 6 drinks. $5 for the martini and $1 tip. At least I just used up all my cash in my wallet, and didn't charge anything to my card.

update...

so I called Davey a lot on Friday and he got pissed. So much he said if I sent another text or call he would consider us done. haha, so I stopped. anyways I sent him an email tonight apologizing and he wrote back saying he doesn't believe me when I say I won't freak out again. oh well. I haven't freaked out the same though. all different ways.

Maybe he'll come this weekend when I have my period and have my Sat night concert to go to at Alice Tully Hall.

Anyways, it's scoreless in Game 5 of the World Series. Giants up 3-1 against the Rangers. Even though I love the Bushes, I am rooting for the Giants. Go Lincecum!

Update on Davey weekend

So Davey got sick this weekend and couldn't come. He did email me both on Sat and Sun showing a great desire to come. Oh well. I think he has his daughter this Halloween weekend. And I bought a classical music concert ticket for the night of Nov 6 so not sure if he wants to go to that. So instead of Rayuela we can go to a restaurant in the Lincoln Center area.

So maybe he'll come on Sat Nov 6 and we'll go to the concert then grab dinner in the Lincoln Center area. Dan Sushi? PJ Clarke's? I have to figure a good place to go to then. :)

Looks like Game 1 of World Series will be won by Texas Rangers and Cliff Lee. leading 2-0 with Cliff Lee on the mound for Texas against Lincecum.

Oct 23-24 weekend

So Davey promised next weekend. The weekend of Oct 23-24. That worked best because I went to a cello/piano concert at Alice Tully Hall on Saturday with my mom. That was good. My mom liked it more than the paid concert that I took her to the philharmonic last year. This concert was free. Definitely a plus to be part of the Classical Music Meetup group where I heard abt the free concert.

Anyways, I am planning to go ice skating this weekend and go to Rayuela and Verlaine for dinner and drinks, respectively. Fun weekend! He'll meet Paddy!

this may be it

so Davey will let me know tmrw most likely if he's coming to NYC this weekend. Not sure if he has his daughter this weekend. And I want to go to a concert at 2pm on Saturday. Maybe next weekend. Who knows? Will keep you updated.

Breaking News

Breaking news: Davey has a daughter. Not sure how old she is. But apparently he was married years ago. Which is news to me. Anyways he had his daughter this weekend. I'm giving him until next weekend to show his face in NYC. He better bring flowers too!

Maybe next

Davey sent me a text this past Friday saying maybe next. So I hope he does come this coming weekend. This weekend makes eight weekends of not connecting. Asked him to call me today. We'll see if he does that.

But he said to take the time we have and enjoy it, so I know I'm in a monogamous relationship with him.

I like the ramen at Ippudo NY. Went there yesterday by myself and sat at the bar. Asked my bro if he wanted to go today, my treat.