I met up with Brandon tonight after work. Got there around 5:20pm. Jerked him off and went on my way. He's very cute! Had my period today so it worked out perfectly.

If I can bet anything is I'll hear from him in a week or so. I think he'll make an excellent fuck buddy. And I think I can get it into more.

He called me at 10:30pm on Tuesday night. I was on my way home from the Yankee game. but I didn't think he would call me.

He's like 6 feet tall, muscular build, scruffy goatee like beard going on. Very cute. I would say he's as cute as John Fitzgerald. And John was hot! He's just Jewish.

I'm in love!

On another note, my blog has been compromised. Davey must have found it, I don't know how but he did. I don't think I bad-mouthed him on this. I just didn't see him that much during our duration (don't even think I wanna call it a relationship).

Anyways, I've moved on to Brandon.

He has a lot of Dave Matthews Band concert posters. I didn't wanna mention the fact that he just saw them last weekend. His apartment is very neat. Puts my apt to shame. I need to get my housekeeper to come by next weekend. He has a nice one-bedroom, enough room for me and Paddy to move into. LOLOL

I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM. HAPPY :)

John is stuck in Beijing for the next two months. And he is surrounded by Asian girls. I think the irony is not lost on me.

What am I doing? He's surrounded by Asian girls, he's probably going to be sick of me when he gets back! The Olympics are on.

For some reason I thought John's dad passed away a while ago but he just did so recently. Isn't that strange? I may be psychic.

I saw John this morning. I can't break up with him. I've tried. It's back on.

This week's planner.

Note John Fitzgerald contacted me on Monday June 16 and Earl's party on Friday June 20.

I am going to sign on the apartment tonight, well I am leaving an application and deposit.

I am finally returning back to Manhattan although I technically never left it since Washington Heights is considered Manhattan.

I'll be 4 blocks away from the Equinox on 54th and 2nd. I'll be nearby Gramercy, about 15 minutes away. I'll be near Bloomie's on 60th and Lex.

Btw, I just saw a picture of Chrissy Delorenzo, a former high school class mate of mine. She is on Danica's blog. Apparently they are going back to visit Dartmouth. When I saw her pic, I was like that looks like her, but then when I read the caption, I figured it was really her.

Old times.

I have much to report to Johnny when I talk to him next week. I'm sure he'll visit me more often. I doubt I'll ever see his new apartment now.

Optimism

I have to stay optimistic about things. I have an apartment and I work at a job. I should be happy with my two doggies. I am not getting laid off anytime soon and sometimes I get paid to do nothing. I should enjoy the times I am off and not stress over work when I am at work doing nothing. And maybe one day I'll win the lottery.

I am dating a great guy who is a bit busy, I should just adapt and go with the flow. Maybe I can marry him and quit my job. He's really quite a catch.

I have to look at the bright side of things. I can't wait until my therapy session on Thursday. It's usually in the beginning of the week. She doesn't want to work on Monday's during the summer.

China's quake-formed lake continues to swell

The stories about China continue. There must a force of nature working against John and me. He must be super-busy. I think I'm going to give up on him.

So he emailed me a nice message. It's back on. I am so indecisive when it comes to John.

Lunch Break xoxo

I had some ham and a pickle. Yummy.

I am getting psyched about seeing Deadbeat Darling tomorrow night. They're a Brooklyn-based band that my friend knows and I'm psyched about their music.

John wrote me back last night, "Xoxo". He still loves me. I just have to give him some time to get his act together. I'm falling in love! It made me feel good.

He has a heart

John just emailed me a I'm so sorry been busy and travelling for work. How can I be upset with him? I am not even going away so I don't really need my jacket back. I'll eventually get it back hopefully when his work schedule lightens up. I may have to chalk this relationship up and move on. I do feel sorry for the guy. This is as heartfelt an emotion as I'll ever get for John. How fitting that I can only feel pity for the boy.

This week in my planner

Note it says "Deadbeat Darling" on Thursday and "Go to Boston" on Friday. Fun week ahead even if John is MIA.

China evacuates 160,000 over quake lake fears

There really are a lot of stories about China and Myanmar, the two areas that John is covering. This week is bad.

One of these days I am going to get home and watch the NBC Nightly News credits and see if this guy's name appears there. I'll put on my investigator hat.

This week's planner

Note that it lists John Fitzgerald on May 20th at 3am

Another church

So I mentioned to a co-worker that I was going to church this Sunday to St. John the Divine, and apparently that's not a Catholic Church, it's Episcopalian. Now I have to find a new church. I may go to her church which is on Park Avenue and 84th Street named St. Ignatius Loyal Church. That's right by where John F used to live, or lives part-time at. I wonder where that boy is. He responded to my urgent message yesterday but I didn't follow-up with him on a date. I am not feeling it for him. There's something about him that I don't think is right.

Waiting for this day to end. I finished up some work but want to prolong doing it so that I can go home on time today. I don't think I am going to the Mets-Yankees meetup game tonight at Turtle Bay. I am not getting along with the assistant organizer, Laura, and I want to go home and do laundry. Maybe that's what I'll do tonight, laundry.

This is how I catalog my life

This week's plans. I mostly update this Ansel Adams daily planner. I don't really keep the iPhone as a daily tracker. If it goes in this book, I am aware of it happening in my life. Note that it says John Fitzgerald on May 13.

Birthday Parties and dog runs

So I had a birthday party that didn't turn out so well. Chris didn't show up. Big Surprise there. Now his phone doesn't even ring, it goes straight to voicemail. I am going to meet Jonathan tonight, I waited til Saturday for Chris.

Jonathan is definitely hotter than Chris. I have to get the photo of Tootell back on here. I think that if I had to choose, it'll still be Chris since I will most likely be his gf at the end of this month. His phone is still turned off though.

John Fitzgerald is the best looking of them all. Together with his occupation, he beats Patrick and all the other guys, including sadly Chris, hands down. I think that Chris is going to be my boyfriend and husband. That email he sent me yesterday wishing me happy birthday means he is thinking of me.


That's a picture of John. The first one is a better pic. There was a photo he had given me that was really hot. But he is super hot in person.

Just returned from the dog run. Paddy and Guga had a blast and they are napping right now. Wish I had a great camera to capture their naps on.