Getting off all medication!

Tonight I took 2 2o mg tablets of Geodon. I have been only on 60 mg of Geodon for the past week. I will take 40 mg of Geodon until Jan 10, then I'll switch to 20 mg until Jan 20 and then I'll go completely off it. I think this is possible because I don't drink any caffeine (no coffee for 28 days and no soda for at least 20 days!). I sometimes occasionally drink Snapple Iced Tea but tea caffeine is better, more antioxidants.

I will cancel my Dr Sherman appt and be doctor-free and medicine-free for the first time since November 2007!

I stopped taking the Zoloft medication in late 2009 and I only needed the Geodon to go to sleep. But now that I have no job, tax season is not until mid-February and I can sleep longer hours because I have no caffeine in my system I don't need Geodon to go to sleep! I hope this 40 mgs is enough! Patrick moved to Chicago, no Brandon or even innocuous clueless Davey is out of the picture. So no guys to get paranoid over. Perfect time to end this medication addiction.

Wish me luck!

My Pumpkin Bread

This pumpkin bread came out quite delicious. Better than Starbucks and cheaper too! Still have one more can of pumpkin left so I can make it again! Yummy

Kitchen Aid Electric Mixer, Naming her Carmen (get it Electra, Electric Mixer)

My new baby, the Kitchenaid Electric Mixer. I paid $275 for it in July when I was employed. And I'm going to use it today for the first time to make ultimate pumpkin bread.

Xmas update

I will try to post weekly if not more updates on my blog. Still at my parents. Have been here since Christmas Eve!

I am making my old recipes from Jan 2010. I will try cooking more because it saves on money and I'm tired of the food in my neighborhood.

I'm going to make spicy cajun chicken fettuccine (from Pioneer Woman's website. www.thepioneerwoman.com) on Thursday. I have to eat the avocados before they go bad!

I've been making a chicken avocado salad with grilled chicken, sliced avocado, cherry tomatoes, red leaf lettuce and diced eggs! Very tasty! I need to buy jalapenos. I found them to be really good and they were at the Morgan Le Faye cafetaria salad bar.

My dad bought me a winter coat. It's Larry Levine cream colored (I still want the white DKNY or the white Calvin Klein coat) long down coat. I prolly won't wear it often as I don't want to get it dirty. I'll be spending a fortune on dry cleaning bills as my mom predicts. They also got me some thermal underwear and a rice cooker.

Still need to buy a blender, food processor, cheese grater, and rolling pin. What irks me is that I bought a cheese grater and rolling pin back in 2010.. Not sure where they are!

So headed back home tmrw around 4:30PM. I might take a spin class tmrw morning. It's an hour spin because in Long Island they spin for an hour (LOL).

I just love Robert Pennino's Terrier Tri cycling classes! I think that makes up for the $178 Equinox membership fee. He's my favorite spin instructor of all time. Gregg Cook of the Terracycle classes is a close second favorite spin instructor. He teaches three classes M to Thur and two classes on Fri. Gonna try his Whipped Classes next month to prep for BBC classes in March. Also will take Leandro Calvallo (sp?) Brazilian Butt/Tummy Tuck/Body Sculpt classes. And Kristi Molinaro's 30/60/90 classes.

Also will save money for a Polar FT60 heart-rate monitor watch! $130. I will get that in March to train for the Brooklyn Half-Marathon!

It looks like there might be showers on NYE, so will skip the outdoor 4 miler. My first race will be the Coogan's 5K. Will try to do it in 8:30 min miles!

I am beginning to like to run again. Need to train up to 6 miles (one full Central Park loop).

Wonder if I'll ever hear from Brandon R again. I do know what he's up to on any given day given his constant twitter updates. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing, LOL

I went to the Jets-Giants game on Christmas Eve with Augusto. That's the last time he goes to a winter game with me. He abandoned me after the third quarter. Not a true fan! Giants won! I was ecstatic! Giants are my number 1 team of all time. Followed closely by Real Madrid, Mets, Yankees, then Jets. I doubt they will win the Super Bowl with Mark Sanchez. I see Vick, Romo and Flacco winning Super Bowl Rings before Sanchez. there was a funny heckler who kept calling him Mark Sandwich. very funny guy!

Too bad I am not making enough money from my tax business to go to the Cowboys-Giants NFC East title game! One way is to get one ticket and use my dentist money and just not finish my post and crown. LOL Nah!

BBC! Updates

So the weekly updates have come to a halt. So sorry for those even bothering to read this. I am still doing my own tax business and working out like a fiend.

I am projected to be fine without full-time or even part-time work until September of 2012. So I will look for full-time or part-time work in April after this coming tax season!

I have lost 4-5 lbs. I am currently hovering near 103. Once I weighed 102.4... I want to weigh 95 lbs because I weighed 95 lbs back in 2001 when I was 24 and had a super-crush on Joe, this really hot trainer at NYSC. I googled him and he is still there now as a fitness services manager. His FB pic is with him and this woman, not sure if that's his wife, fiance, girlfriend. I did ask to be his contact on LinkedIn but he has only 4 connections so I doubt he uses it much. He's still hot! Thought he wanted to be an actor. Oh well.

My new craze is Barry's Boot Camp! I ordered a 5-pack for $110. $22 a session instead of $32. I will take some fitness classes at Equinox to prep myself up for the BBC.

I will prolly take it with Joey Gonzalez, COO of BBC. I was contemplating taking Noah's classes but he's not an expert trainer like Joey. Plus he's Jewish! LOL I doubt I will be dating Noah anyways. He did accept my friend request unlike Joey. All of them don't hold a candle to Joe. He inspired me to run the marathon... I am even contemplating tracking down which NYSC he belongs to and re-joining NYSC. Nah. I like not being in any relationship of any kind. As Rachel Weisz character said in Definitely Maybe, "I don't need a guy!" Just his sperm. LOL

I will cut out my hair coloring and manicure expense if I like BBC.

OK nothing else new with me. Nothing to do today or tonight. I spun with RP of Terrier Tri at 85th and Third (four spin classes each day this week in a row!). Will attempt to run 3.4 miles tmrw.

He gave out free Terrier Tri coffee mugs! Not sure why the 85th Street Equinox members are so special. I went to the 63rd St Terrier Tri on Wednesday morning and he didn't give anything out to them!

Update

So sorry I haven't posted sooner. Not much to report. Went on an interview on Tuesday and got rejected. Didn't really want the job as it requires lots of overtime all year long. I just want to work 40-50 hrs, not 60-65 hours. No Saturdays for me!

Anyways Brandon has been busy and I haven't heard from him since Halloween. Not that I want or crave sex anymore. Also he's too young for me and Jewish for me anyways. Just have to keep reminding myself.

I came to the Starbucks to see if I can download iTunes but it is not working so I will wait to next Wednesday when I go home to my parents and can leave it on all day long to load up.

I have been going to the gym a lot these days. Planet Fitness is open 24 hours from Monday to Friday. I still have insomnia so I've been going to Duane Reade and buying stuff. Not good for my wallet.

There is this one audit project that I'm not doing so well and I may have to turn down if I don't get the workpapers to see what the previous auditor did. But that's potentially $820 (two audit projects) and I can sure use the money this holiday season.

I have been attending a lot of spin classes and yoga and Pilates classes at Equinox. Finally making the most of my $178 membership fee. I even ran 1.5 miles yesterday but I think I will lay off the gym for the next few days as it hurts to walk down stairs. I still prefer Robert Pennino's spin classes the most. Followed by Damien and Constance. I don't like Jeff Martin who sings along to the songs and Jason who talks about the news and politics. Don't need to hear that.

I am going to catch the Q101 bus to go home and then go to the soccer game at Mr Dennehy's Real Madrid versus Valencia. #1 vs #3. Should be a good match.

Then tonight I am going to go see an opera, Rodelinda. It is from 8 to 11:50. Tomorrow I might do a spin class if I am not sore or skip it. Church depending on whether or not I take that class and then going to knit a scarf if it kills me. The blue one for my mom. And then a white one for Augusto. Need to go to Staples to photocopy the pattern so I can bring it along with me.

I figured my budget out and since Steve owes me some money and I'm getting unemployment I think I can survive to Sept 2013 doing my own tax business. Not so bad.

So a week and a half has passed by and I have not seen or heard from Brandon. I didn't like the sex and he wasn't asking me out on any dates. He is 26 and Jewish. Need to move on. Gonna die with a dog and maybe my own child if I can afford one.

Irony

How ironic. Brandon's at Gilette Stadium in Foxboro, Massachusetts for the Giants-Patriots game. I was contemplating going too but I have a tax seminar in Manhattan Monday morning so I decided against it.

He's funny. Not sure which team he's rooting for since he went to college in Boston.

I have 3.5 full-day seminars for the CPE. Monday Nov 7, Wed Nov 16, Fri Nov 18, and Mon Nov 21.

I wonder if I'll see him this week. Ultra-bored.

One of my clients paid me 300/1200 owed, so 900 is still owed.

Two nights in a row

OK, yesterday I met my bro in Flushing for some pho for lunch. I wasn't that hungry and didn't eat that much. Steve said he would accompany me tight- and yarn-shopping if I paid for his cigarettes and dinner.

Then Brandon IM'ed me around 3pm asking me to meet him for more sex. I told him later.

I got some white yarn at Knitty City and then a McRib meal with an extra McRib sandwich for

$1, not bad!

Then I headed home with my bro to watch Game 7. Brandon contacted me while I was on the N train and asked to meet.

So I took a cab from Astoria to his place on East 50th and Second Ave. $17.25 with tip for those wondering. We had some sex and then I jerked him off. It still hurt. Anyways, he said he'll be gone for who knows what so two nights in a row followed by a 3-4 week absence. who knows where it comes with him? And my feeling that there might be more is dwindling. oh well, a fuck buddy is good enough, right?

I went to a costume kickball party.. where they play drinking ping pong games and card games. Remind me not to go to another kickball party. Chiemi brought surgical scrubs as a costume for me.

It finally happened!

OK, Brandon and I had sex tonight. And boy it did hurt! I am not sure how big he is but he must be at least 8 inches....... I guess Patrick was not that big because I don't recall the sex with Patrick as hurting.

And the funny thing abt that was he went with my suggestion on the position.

But he did realize I did not enjoy it. I don't think I'll go on yahoo anymore. if he calls me I'll meet him again but I'm not going on Yahoo to solicit it.

The cool thing is that I got home in time for Big Bang Theory. I am on Season One, Disc Two for Big Bang Theory. I am done with Season Two of Gossip Girl.

Rangers-Cardinals game tonight. Game 6. I hope the Rangers can beat the Cardinals before it goes to game 7 in St Louis.

And he reappears!

So Brandon IM'ed me on Monday night. Said he was in Canada which I already knew from his twitter postings.

Said he was busy.

Not sure if I'll see him this week. Not entirely sure of how I feel towards him. I do like him but I'm just bored. LOL

Really last update on Brandon

And I only sent him one IM on yahoo last week. Not so bad! I really could care less. I really didn't think we would have sex anyways. He always chickens out. And he is not that good looking, not as good looking as he was three years ago. So I'm not bummed out or anything.

OK, this is really the last update on Brandon.

:)

Last Brandon update

It's been two weeks since Brandon last contacted me so I think it's over. I guess I wasn't really thinking we would have sex anyways. And he prolly wouldn't go away after that. LOL

Last Brandon update.

I signed off on someone's income so I got $200. Plus I need to get paid for that $1200 client and the $500 client. Plus $410. Not so bad! I will be able to survive til October. That $410 client said he has two more projects. Maybe I can get that too.

I think I can survive to February and tax season which should be good until October. And if I get $820 in audit clients per month, then I can do year-round on my tax business.

Possible Audit project :)

Waiting to hear word back if I got an audit project. It's for 2 years. And I quoted $870 which I'll get $790 after Elance fees.

That would be nice to get a nice-summed project one day into my unemployment/self-employment.

I picked up my CPE credit manual and my shoes and gym stuff from the office. Said bye to Joel Weinstein.

I am embarking on a new career. My own tax business will let me survive on my own! Mark my words. I will survive!

This week no plans except to finish the three audit projects I have and get paid. I will do the CPE credits next week.

I might go to Ippudo tonight to celebrate my project. Get some ramen with extra noodle.

I am going on Wednesday night to Fulton with Josh. Then Sat night going to Rosa Mexicano with Josh, Augusto and possibly 2 other meetup members.

I hope I get to finally see Brandon, he's been MIA from twitter at night and from yahoo IM. Maybe it's over. however brief that was.

No more full-time job

Lost my job today and I don't qualify for unemployment. Oh well. Life sucks!

I do qualify for COBRA, so that's not bad.

Now I get to meet Brandon whenever he so desires. I have not heard from him since Tuesday though. Maybe I lost him for good. I doubt it.

I am rooting for the Brewers and Rangers. Ultimately for the Rangers! Go Josh Hamilton!

I can survive on my own so long as I earn $500 a month until tax season where I'll earn more money. And Steve will have to pay me back the $1400 he owes.

3eb lyrics

Searching for something I could never give you

There's someone who understands you more than I do

A sadness I can't erase, all alone on your face

Love these lyrics to God of Wine, my favorite 3eb song.

So Brandon told me on Tuesday night to come over at 5PM on Wednesday but I didn't see him online so I just met up with Augusto for some sushi dinner.

I had a lychee martini and am getting over being buzzed.

I knew Brandon would chicken out. I think I will eventually meet him for sex but it's never going to be easy.

My housekeeper came over and my apt is super-clean. Now just have to maintain that level of cleanliness.

Augusto says Chappaqua is full of rich wealthy people. Maybe Brandon's gym usage is being subsidized by his parents. I think he spends close to $300 on gym and spin classes. Isn't that crazy?

Brandon tried to persuade me to leave work at 3pm to meet up for sex. I even asked my boss to leave but I forgot the post office is closed today. FAIL.

I thought I lost him. he may be traveling this week. he hasn't been in Toronto lately.

I'm bored. I may do flywheelsports. it's $30 per ride. I'll do the 7AM Monday class with John. He does the 7:30PM class ... not gonna take the same class, that would be hilarious.

OK I'm bored. heading to sleep. just wanted to put a quick Brandon update.

Lobster dinner

Just got back from dinner with Augusto at Nino's. Living Social coupon for a lobster dinner with bottle of white wine. Wine was good. Lobster was tasty.

Brandon hasn't contacted me since Wednesday. Maybe it's over. I'm bored. He's in Chappaqua visiting his parents. He visits them often.

I'm getting my hair highlighted tomorrow. then doing some work. I have an audit, 990-EZ that I'm dreading doing, and a personal tax return. Will make $1800 dollars more. Raking it in at this point.

Watching the Phillies lose to the Cardinals. If they don't make it to the next round I doubt I will watch any more baseball.

OK no Brandon update. He went to work today. So exciting. Still tweeting famous hot women on twitter with no responses. LOL, he's truly pathetic. But me checking his updates might make me even more pathetic.

Yankees game in October

I just got home from dinner with Chiemi at Cafetasia. We had a $30 Living Social coupon.

Now watching Yankees game, Brandon is there with some friends. how come everyone he goes with and says in his tweet that he's going with tweets they're going with someone else. it's kinda funny and sad at the same time.

Brandon's so far bad luck for the Yankees. I won't be too majorly bummed if the Yankees don't make it to the World Series. I do want the Phillies to make it to the WS more.

I have a lobster dinner with Augusto tomorrow. I wonder if Brandon will ask me out tomorrow. I'm just bored to be honest, not really horny or anything.

Loaded bases, 3-1 Tigers in jeopardy. I hope Brandon's still at the game. He may be good luck after all.