MacBook Air for home

So my dad got me the best birthday present ever -- a MacBook Air! I did buy all the accessories and software so I had to invest about $750 in it. $1500 if I want it to have all the software my PC has. Since my PC has not crashed I'm in no rush to have Adobe Standard, the EZ Pay Stub Generator, W2 Mate, etc.

I will bring this iBook with me to off-site interviews. I hope I can install TaxAct as well. If not I will buy a Sony VAIO in November on Black Friday.

Anyways, now Carl thinks I should stay put and not move until December. I really do enjoy his support and we are coping with the fact that I'm living in Bayside. He's come over 3 times so far and we're trying to meet every 2 weeks which I think is doable. I really need to move closer to Manhattan for my work -- all my clients are based out of Manhattan and I only know how to get more clients in Manhattan, my Craigs List demographic.

I am going to try to post once a week at least since I don't have a therapist anymore and I want to make sure I am not acting manic or anything.

I really want to see my old therapist -- either Dr Judith B*el*d or Dr Curtis C*amp but I've gotten very frugal with my money ever since Carl has been telling me to save my money. And I know myself so I will probably visit the NAMI support group and seek their advice. It's free and they all have mental illnesses to a varying degree. I will visit both groups -- the general mental illness that meets on Wednesday nights and the bi-weekly support group on Thursdays. 

We are meeting next week to see the Gaughin exhibit at MOMA. I think I can get in with my MS ID. I was able to get in a few years ago so I hope that works. Very excited for that date! Carl is really into art as he was a design major or something like that. And I appreciate art as well. I will update after my date to fill you in all the juicy details :)

Monumental relationship news =)

So I just re-read my blog from earlier years (not all the entries) but I can see my manic ways of going out so much. There would be stretches in blog entry with me just listing my activities.

I am trying to schedule an appointment with my former therapist Curtis to see if he can help me decide on when to move out. I know if I move out in September it's not because I think I can live alone, it's to move out to be closer to my boyfriend Carl. I don't want Carl to be the reason I move out. When he didn't contact me for that 30 hr time span in either March or February I thought temporarily that we were broken up and my relief was instant that I did not have to move out. So I totally think that if I move out September 1, it's for Carl and not for myself.

I think I am definitely in love with Carl but I am not sure if I love Carl. We don't spend that much time together for me to say definitively that I love Carl. I do know he makes me happy and I am so happy I found him. He's so caring, adoring and attentive, I feel like I am missing this huge flaw or that he doesn't spend weekends with me because he has a wife and kids somewhere he hid away at his apt where I've never visited.

I need to work out these issues with Curtis. I hope he has some time available next Wed to meet.

I need to post more. I just have a paltry 3 posts for 2014.

I have an appt with a client tonight at 6pm. I had lunch with Elaine at Del Posto, not sure if it's worth the $51 I spent on it.